Bitter-sweet.

It's 3 am.  I know i should be in bed, but I've been studying. I am going to bed soon though i promise. And it's finally setting in that i am leaving tomorrow, i don't want to go. But i know that i have to and i know that God has plans for my summer, although i don't know what they are yet. I don't like not knowing, it's scary to me but i know that by trusting God and letting him take the steering wheel everything will be okay :) Even though sometimes that's hard for me to do i know that it's what has to be done. The second thing that's really setting in, is the bitter-sweetness of leaving. Leaving the people that i am really close to like my roommates who i consider my closest friends. They are always there to talk to you and can always put a smile on my face when i need it the most, they are just great like that. My friends are the same way I don't know what i would do without them in my life. They are great. Leaving is not fun  but it has to be done.  i will see them all again and there will definitely be visits throughout the summer. It will be different without them always by my side 24/7. I believe that God has bigger plans than i could ever have, so  i will trust in him and make this summer the best summer with God :)

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."- Joshua 1:9